Thanks for visiting my site! The intent of this blog is to discuss the discovery of our abilities. There may be a post that you read that is helpful or you may leave a comment that will be helpful so someone else. I’ve known, since I was a child, that I had sensitivities but it wasn’t until about a year and a half ago that they opened wide! When it happened I was very excited and happy that some of my abilities were opening up. Coming alive! There was only one little issue. Now what am I supposed to do? I was on sensory overload and didn’t know which way to turn. I was getting desperate because there was so much happening all at once. One day my daughter connected me to a co-worker that read auras. In turn she gave me a list of names of psychic-mediums. I called one of the well renowned and respected psychic-mediums on the list. I left a message, skeptical about whether she would even return my call. She did! That was my conformation that it wasn’t all in my head and the beginning of this wonderful journey that I am on.
No matter where you are in your journey let’s walk the path together.
A few months ago, I
had a tarot reading done. As she laid
out the cards her reactions to the cards were very animated. When the cards
were all laid out, she looked at me with an almost astonished look, she then
asked if I knew that I had abilities. I replied with a yes. Still with an
astonished look she said that in all of the years she has been reading she had
never (emphasis on never J) seen cards lay out
the way mine did. The last thing she
said before we started was that my abilities are very strong and that I didn’t
yet understand just how strong they are.
As the reading was done there were 2 very
specific things that came up as far as furthering the development and managing
my abilities.
I needed to build
confidence
That I had a fear
that I needed to face and overcome. Fears will block aspects of development.
At the end of the reading we chatted for a few minutes and she suggested doing some pendulum work. By asking questions that I could build confidence and doing this work would help to figure out what fear, specifically, was holding me back so that I could face it and work through it.
l let the items I
need choose me, so it took about a month to get the right one.
Many people think
that the answers that a pendulum gives you are answered by spirits. That is absolutely untrue. The answers come from the subconscious, the
higher self. It’s important to cleanse
(I lay mine on a bed of Citrine about once a month). It’s also important that only your energy is
on your pendulum. If someone touches it
make sure it is cleansed before the next use.
As with anything
there are different techniques that people use.
In the case of the pendulum some people prefer to program it. Others let the pendulum program itself. After cleansing it, I first tried to program
it. Moving the dangling crystal toward
myself and then away I stated, “this means yes”. I also did the same for the answer to be no,
I don’t know, and I don’t want to say right now. I started asking my questions
and it didn’t move. I even asked questions that I already knew the answers to
make sure that I wasn’t doing anything wrong….still nothing. By this time I was frustrated so I put it
away.
A few days later I
tried again. This time I let it program
itself. Holding the top with one hand, dangling
it directly over the other hand (palm up) I said, “show me yes”. I was pleasantly surprised when it moved
toward me and then away, continuing to do so until I stopped it. “Show me no”
was the next step. It took a minute but started moving in a counterclockwise
motion. I moved through the other 2 and got those motions too. I was so
excited! That day I just asked
unimportant questions. The motions
stayed consistent with what I had been shown.
I waited a few days
to work with it again. This time I wrote
down questions of which I was truly unsure of the answers. For instance, I was drained of energy all of
the time, I had no motivation, and couldn’t keep my eyes open. These are all classic signs of depression,
yet I didn’t feel depressed. I also knew
that spirits can drain your energy in order to maintain theirs. My intuition was that it was a spirit, but my
conscious mind needed conformation that my intuition was right. I asked the
question: “Is there a spirit in my house
and taking all of my energy”? The answer
was yes. My intuition was confirmed to
be right by being able to see that my intuition was indeed correct. It did boost my confidence in trusting my
intuition and not questioning it. Each
time I consulted the pendulum and got verification OR that my interpretation
was incorrect it helped build my confidence.
If my interpretation was incorrect, I would look within myself, meditate
and ask my guides for help in understanding.
I go through this process one time.
Many times my guides and Angels can give me an answer or point me in the
right direction for understanding. Other
times I receive nothing at that time, but eventually the answer will come. It may be a day or a couple of weeks, but it
will come in one form or another. It may
come as an epiphany, or when you are smelling a flower and be taken back to a
memory that gives you the answer. It’s
important to trust in your higher self and know that the answer will come when
the time is right. Don’t over analyze or
dwell on it. By doing that your logical
mind is in the forefront and intuition and logic don’t usually match up.
A few weeks ago I
was doing some pendulum work and as I was asking my questions. The pendulum
moved in a way that it never had before (side to side)! I had no idea what that motion meant! I asked a few questions to try to figure it
out. Not only did I not get an answer,
but another motion (clockwise) I had never seen before came into play. Again, I asked a few questions, still no
answers. I was getting frustrated, so it
was time to walk away.
A few days later I
was cleansing some of my crystals and all of the sudden I knew what it meant.
“Look within” is what popped into my head. Immediately to follow was a vision
of me looking in an old fashioned mirror and the pendulum moving from side to
side. I wrote it down, so that the next
time I started a session I would remember ask the question. The next time I started.
In the back of my
mind this clockwise motion nagged at me.
The answer did not come as easily as “look within”. When it did come, I knew exactly why it was
harder to figure out. I always write down
my questions and answers when I work with my pendulum. I went back and read all of the questions that
had evoked the clockwise motion. As I
read them I started to see a pattern. While this shed some light on the motion, I
still wasn’t quite sure of the answerAfter a few more questions, some that I
didn’t know the answers to and then a few that I did know the answers to. When I asked a question that I already knew
the answer to the clockwise motion would begin.
My final question on the movement was “when you move in a clockwise
motion, does that mean I already know the answer in my conscious mind”? As I watched there came the clockwise motion,
then it transitioned to yes. Intuitively
that made sense. I already knew the
answers in my conscious mind, but they had not come to me yet! Whether it have been that the answers were
buried or because I wasn’t trusting my intuition, or the time just wasn’t the
right time for the answer to surface didn’t matter at this point. I didn’t overanalyze. I accepted the answer
for what it was and was grateful that I now have another answer to guide me and
continue helping me with continuing to gain confidence. 😊
When I began using my
pendulum, I sat and asked questions on a regular basis. As time has gone on, and my confidence has
increased I find that I only pull it out and ask questions when my intuition
leads me in that direction or when I feel a strong pull from the pendulum
itself. There are times when I walk by it and I get a tingle from head to toe,
and that is when I know it is calling to
Recently as I was
getting ready to put together a new crystal combination (I carry a small mesh
bag with me that holds the crystals). I
happened to have my pendulum out and my intuition guided me to ask which crystals
I needed to carry with me at that time for my highest and best good. I started working through the crystals one by
one. With each I received a yes or no. I always carry black tourmaline for
protection because that is its primary use.
Much to my dismay, the answer to carrying it was “no”. I got out my “Crystal Bible” and started reading
the attributes of each. Since many
crystals have more than one use. Reading
about each crystal, it became clear that some of the crystals had protection as
an attribute. My higher self knew which combination I needed when my conscious self
was overthinking.
I’m grateful for that tarot reading. I had never thought about pendulum work before that. Working with it has built my confidence and trust in my higher self. I have also received answers that really made me look within myself making my spiritual connection much stronger, and communication with my higher self.
As I mentioned in my first post “The
Awakening” my abilities didn’t really open wide until about a year and a half
ago…at the age of 47. In that time I
have learned a lot! Mid-December of last
year is when I delivered my first message from spirit. I was so excited, but nervous
and confused at the same time.
The spirit was a 14 year old girl who
had lost her battle with cancer nearly a year before. I’ve known her mother
since high school, but didn’t know if she, or her husband believed in mediums
etc. We hadn’t had a close relationship throughout the years, well because life
sometimes gets in the way. We reconnected a couple of years ago and have forged
a strong friendship. It’s important to
note, that I had seen this girl’s parents multiple times since she had crossed
over, but always in a group setting. On
this particular day I was to have dinner with them, without being in a group
setting. I had never met their
daughter. I had seen pictures, but only
pictures from when she was very ill.
About 4 hours before I was to see her parents, she came to me. I am clairvoyant, so at that time I could only
see her. My clairaudience hadn’t developed
yet (it’s progressing but it’s not consistent).
She spun in an open field with her arms out straight, in bright sunshine. Smiling with childlike happiness. As I
mentioned earlier I was ecstatic. Then, the doubt and fear set in. What if her parents don’t believe? Will they think it’s a sick joke? Will they think I have lost my mind? At this point this girl put her hands
together and bent to the side slightly, and as kids sometimes do she said “pleeeeeeaaaase”
I couldn’t hear the word, but by her body language and reading her lips I knew
what she was saying. I would get my
courage up and decide that I was going to deliver her message. I would find a way. I went back and forth with the fear,
nervousness and confidence all afternoon.
Every time I got scared or confused, she would once again say “pleeeeeeaaaase”. She was showing me the same thing over and
over. Finally, I said to her, you have
to show me more so that your parents are positive that it’s you. She showed me the color of her hair. Next,
she showed me her teeth. As strange as that
sounds, what she showed me was unique and not something noticeable to
others. She stayed with me for five and
a half hours, until I saw her parents.
Boy was she persistent. During dinner there was finally an opening to
ask my friend if she and her husband believed in mediums and messages from
spirit. She told me she did, but her husband didn’t.
WHEW! I was so relieved, but still awfully
nervous because I didn’t want to mess up what their daughter was communicating.
I did let them know that this was the first time a spirit had come to me, and
asked them to be patient if I was a bit clumsy while delivering their daughter’s
message.
I then started describing what their
daughter had been showing me in detail. From what she was wearing, her surroundings,
to the “pleeeeeaaase”. As it turned out
the clothes she was wearing was her favorite outfit. I described her hair
color, her teeth…EVERYTHING that she showed me.
As I delivered the message, her parents piped up now and then and, with
smiles, and laughter and expressed that the things I was describing were things,
and even mannerisms of their daughter (even the skeptical father). Just as I was wrapping up the message, she
kissed each of them on the cheek and faded away. My friend immediately felt goosebumps as her
daughter kissed her.
With teary eyes she thanked me and told me that she had been asking for some kind of sign that her daughter was at peace. It was comforting to me to see and feel her comfort.
I came home and slept very soundly
that night. The first thing I saw when I
awoke, was the spirit of the girl. She
mouthed the words “thank you”, blew me a kiss and then was gone. Every now and then she pops in for just a few
seconds, always with a smile and a wave.
I’m not sure why that is, but I’m sure that in time the answer will be
revealed.
If and when you receive a message
from spirit it’s vital that you do not add your interpretations to the
message. Many things may not make sense
to you, but the message will mean something to the intended recipient. We are the conduit between the spirit world
and the physical world. It is also
important to relay everything. I we don’t,
the spirit will come back, and for lack of a better word, pester you until
their message is delivered correctly, and in full.
God has given me a precious
gift. A gift that brings comfort to both
spirit and the loved ones that need to receive the message. I am grateful for
that every day. Never will it be taken
for granted.
When my abilities popped open fully,
I had a picture in my head that sensitives were calm, patient and zen all of
the time. Wrong! I also had a picture in my head that spirit
guides followed psychics around all of the time and whispered in the person’s
ear whispering to them what they needed to know. Wrong!
Meeting my spirit guides was difficult
for me. I was meditating, writing
letters, and focusing most of my energy on trying to get them to step forward
and communicate. Yet none were stepping forward. I wanted to know who they were
and communicate with them so badly. I
was extremely frustrated and couldn’t figure out what I was doing wrong.
What I was doing wrong was trying too
hard and not paying attention to signs that they were giving me here in the
physical world! They were giving me
little signs that they were there every day. I just wasn’t seeing them.
In my meditations I started seeing an eagle. I could only see the head and it was from the side. I could only see one eye, but it really stuck out. It was right up front and prominent. For the life of me I couldn’t figure out why! Seeing eagles in dreams and meditations can mean several things. One of the meanings is that you need to look closely and pay attention to detail. Since the eye was the most prominent feature that made sense. I took the cue and started to really watch the world around me. I started to see and hear a few things here and there, but I still hadn’t made contact with my spirit guides. At least not the kind of contact I wanted.
I asked both Paula and Julie what I
was doing wrong. Why couldn’t I make
contact? Both had the same answer for me (separate conversations). Both told me to stop tying to force the
communication. They are on their own timeline not yours, and when they feel it’s
time they will come to you clearly. I
did get some great advise too! Paula, in
her very matter of fact way of speaking, said “Your spirit guides aren’t just waiting
around and doing nothing, BUT if you want then to communicate directly you have
to ask them for things so that you know they are there and acting when asked to
do so”. She also explained that the responses to your requests may happen right
away, or it could take a few days. That
is where attention to detail and patience comes in. Maybe you ask to see a horse. You may be
driving and see a horse in a pasture.
You may see one on television.
You may see one in a dream, or even a photograph or painting. It doesn’t
matter how it comes to you. The point is
that you asked, and you received. It is
important to acknowledge your guides when the sign comes. You can say a simple thank you, or if you
want to expand on your thoughts, feel free to do so.
There are many ways to meditate in
order to connect with your guides and angels.
Every method I have learned about has to do with starting a meditation
and asking your guides and angels to come forward. My wording is:” I ask that
my angels and spirit guides come forward to help me with my journey. I ask any guide who is willing to teach me to
step forward for the good of my higher myself and all souls involved.” I start my mediations by concentrating on my
breathing (long, slow breathes). Visualize a beautiful place that makes you
feel happy and safe. Let all senses be activated. Feel the sunshine, smell what
is around you and if there is something that you would like to touch, do that
too. Ask again for any guides willing to teach and guide you to step forward.
Next, picture someone walking up to you (not a specific person). Be patient and
stay in that moment. If someone does walk up to you thank them for coming and
ask their name (if this is a relative or friend that has crossed over, of
course, you will already know the name😊). If you cannot hear the name, ask
them to say it louder. If you still can’t
hear it ask them to write it for you. I
am clairvoyant so I see, but do not always hear, so asking for the names to be
written was the way that worked for me. Thee guide may have something to say or
show you right away. If that is not the
case, ask the question “Do you have a gift or guidance for me?” At that moment
they may or may not. I could be that
they came forward just to meet you, or you could receive gifts and/or guidance.
The message may be clear or not make sense to you at all. You can ask questions. Remember they will
answer in their own way and you may still have to think about it and analyze it
later. Stay in your space until the
guide or angel starts to leave/fade.
Thank them for coming and for the help they have given. Now, when you
feel ready come out of the meditation. I
always journal my meditations. I have
found that journaling after seeing my guides (in as much detail as I can
remember) helps me to understand some things as I write. I also go back and re-read later. Many times,
I am able to understand more of the message and its meaning.
It took me months to meet my guides, and A LOT of patience. As not to force the issue, I asked my guides and angels to come forward a couple of times a week. For a long time, they didn’t come, so I went on with my meditation. I kept asking for my signs every day and paying attention to detail in everyday life. Once they did start coming to me it was magical and insightful! There were many emotions running through my body after meeting them that it is impossible to capture all of them. They don’t come to me every day in meditation, but they do leave signs. I know they are with me, and I trust that when they have something to pass on to me, or I really need help, that they will be there.
For most of us our guides and angels
are not going to stop by for coffee and a chat as soon as we start to open the
door to the spirit world. It really does
take a lot of patience, talking (on our end) and attention to detail to see the
signs that are being given to us. They will come…when they are ready.
PS My guides didn’t come to me and
communicate directly until AFTER the first time I delivered my first message
from spirit.
In my last post I talked about finding
a metaphysical store that I love. For those of us that are just starting to
learn about, manage and open up our abilities, a metaphysical store can be a
playground! There are so many things
that can help with that. There are also very knowledgeable people that can help
guide you and answer questions. In the store that I go to, everyone that works
there has abilities of one type or another.
I love that because they understand what I am trying to accomplish. They can identify so they are great guides
and resources. That being said, I still let
my intuition guide me when advise is given or an item is recommended. Below are
some of the things that I love and have found helpful. I could write for days about items that help
me and bring me comfort. Here a few of
my favorites.
Gems are wonderful helpers! They are
powerful, and easy to use. It is
important to carefully choose the ones that are going to benefit you and what
you are trying to accomplish. Cleansing and setting the intent of gem is very
important in order to get the maximum benefit.
Journals are very important to developing any psychic ability! I journal everything! Some people talk to
their guides in thoughts or out loud. I
do that, but right before I meditate I write a letter to them and leave the journal
open to that page so that the message can be seen by the universe. I journal
what I see in my meditations.
Meditations are sometimes straight forward and other times they are hard
to interpret. If you write them down,
you may have an “AHA” moment in the future.
Go back and read it. Many times, the pieces will come together. I journal my dreams. Dreams come from the subconscious. There are messages in those dreams. Like meditation the message may be straight forward,
or it could be disjointed and unclear.
Journaling affords the same opportunity to go back, re-read and have the
meaning of the dream become more clear.
In both cases that “AHA” may not come.
That’s OK too.
I had a dream that was disjointed and really didn’t make sense. I first saw the face of a co-worker, then of my grandson sitting in a hospital crib. Everything was white, his gown, the crib, the walls (that freaked me out a little) but he was laughing and clapping his hands.. Lastly, I saw the hand of a friend handing me a dish of raspberries and blueberries. Part of that dream was precognitive. My grandson (who has a sever heart condition) was admitted to the hospital 14 hours later. I really felt like I needed to reach out to the co-worker, however, we don’t have a close working relationship. It took me about a week to finally call him and check in. As we chatted, he was driving to the doctor’s office to get lab work done because he had just been diagnosed with early heart disease! A couple of days after I spoke to him the dream clicked! My grandson was admitted to the hospital due to his heart issues. The co-worker had just been diagnosed with a heart issue (and needed to talk about it). The berries were blue and red. Blood is blue before it is oxygenated and read after it’s oxygenated. BOOM! There it is…I finally understood, and it did indeed all tie in together. Had I not written that dream down I would not have made the berry/blood connection. At the time of the dream the berries didn’t seem important at all. When I went back and read it that is when it all came together.
Candles. I love candles! In a
metaphysical store the candles are labeled for their use. I always have a
meditation candle, an intuition candle, and a health and wellness candle on
hand. I also love chakra candles Like gems, set the intent of the candle before
lighting it the first time. Never blow out a candle. It blows the intent
away. Always use a snuffer.
Cleansers – Sage, Juniper, Cedar, Sweetgrass, sandalwood, frankincense. All of these and more can be used for
cleansers OR adding good energy to your home.
I love the smell of sandalwood when I meditate. A braid of sweetgrass hung above the front
door will cleanse the energy of everyone who walks through it. Visitors leave
bad energy at the door, keeping the house free from the clutter of others
energy.
Essential oils can help with so many things. Jasper is great to rub on your third eye
before meditation (or whenever) as it helps to open your third eye. Oak Moss is great for grounding. Rub a small amount on the bottom of each foot,
and your root chakra (lower back right at the tailbone). Lavender calms and relaxes.
Put a few drops in the bath or use an infuser to fill the air. The smell of cinnamon
wil help to relieve headaches. The smell of lemon and/or grapefruit boosts energy
levels. It’s unbelievable how many ways essential
oils can be used. Not only to heighten abilities,
but just good health in general.
Books are oh so wonderful! If you are
like me and aren’t able to have a formal teacher, or a social circle that you
can meet with on a regular basis (which is the case for me), reading is a must.
When I go into the metaphysical store, through discussion, a book is almost
always recommended. If that book calls
to me when I pick it up it goes home with me.
If not, it stays put. The same goes for ordering books online…get what
you are drawn to.
Figurines – Angels, fairies, religious items, animals. I could go on and on. Put them in your sacred place or all around
your home. Whatever feels right to
you. If that isn’t something that interests
you, that’s fine. They are not a
must. I really enjoy them.
Jewelry is great because it is always in your energy field! Whether it helps calm, protect, bring out
intuition or certain abilities and you can mix and match.
When I go to a metaphysical store, I
really do feel like a kid in a candy store! I get excited! I look at every goody and while I want almost
all of it, I choose what I want the most, AND what calls to me.
For many years I have had tarot
cards, white quartz crystal and a variety of other metaphysical items. One evening, after I had been seeing the
spirits in my home, I had an overwhelming need to get my tarot cards out and
ask the question “Is this real? Or is it all in my head?” I went to get my
cards and they were gone! I had recently
moved. and all of my metaphysical items were gone. I frantically tore the house apart wondering
if I had left them in a box that hadn’t been unpacked. They were no where to be found! I was devastated! Had I still lived in the city I would have
been able to go get a new deck the next day.
Now that I live about 100 miles away from the city, I couldn’t do that.
It was suggested that I order them online.
I couldn’t do that. When I buy items
like cards or gems etc. I have to touch item.
Rather than me picking the item, I let it pick me. It took about 2 weeks for me to be able to
find the time to get to the city. My
daughter-in-law, Brittany, went with me that day and took me to a metaphysical
store that I hadn’t been to before. As
soon as I walked in, I felt like that’s where I belonged. I could feel the
love, wisdom and nurturing energy the moment I walked in. I made my way to the
tarot cards and ended up with 2 decks. I
had only intended to get one, but the second deck just felt right as I was
looking though the variety that was on display. I had been learning about gems
and how each gem helps with different things.
I walked over to that section of the store and was immediately excited,
but overwhelmed. There are so many, and
while each one has it’s own properties there is overlap. Since this was my first time looking at them,
I couldn’t just look at them and know which ones I needed. Now what do I do? I must have looked just as
confused as I felt because one of the ladies that worked there came over and
asked what I was looking for. I responded with “I don’t really know”. I briefly
explained what my situation. She took
her time to explain to me what I needed to help develop my intuition (which
really is the foundation of all psychic abilities). She also explained that I needed protection
gems and helped me pick a couple of different types suited for me. Before she walked away, she pointed out that
there were small slips of paper next to each container of gems that indicated
what each gem was for. Now, she could have just pointed that out and been on
her way to help someone else, but she took the time to really help me. Little
did I know that I would form a trust with this woman. I walked around that
store for at least an hour after getting my gems and cards. Earlier I mentioned
that I let items pick me. I walked out
of that store with many more items than I went in for. I soon realized that
these items would really help me continue down my personal path to
enlightenment and developing my abilities.
When I got home, I got my cards out
and asked my question. The cards laid out just as I hoped they would. I’m not crazy and it’s not all in my
head. What I had been experiencing was
real. There was much more information
contained in that spread, but the important thing is that there was validation
in the answer laid out in the cards. I was elated!
Everything happens for a reason! It’s
important to remember that as your angels and guides send you messages and
signs every day. They do indeed guide you.
In my case those missing items lead me that store. A place full of love and wisdom.
I didn’t realize it at that moment, but
It was a blessing in disguise, and I am forever grateful!
